ON ARRIVING.
Fall 2022.
{please excuse the raw nature of this audio recording. it is home done and spun and I am not an engineer. thank you. also, I have slight sniffles.}
I thought of you, after much personal alchemy and paradigm shifting through the eclipse portal. Indeed, I thought of you, specifically and personally, reading these very words. I didn’t think of the group on this list. I picture individual people in a very human way— where one might be when they open the email, what you might look like or feel like, as you sit on an old chair that creaks in a way that reminds you of a specific familial scent circa Thanksgiving 1998 and in a flash of a moment… you are taken there in your minds eye. Maybe you reject the sense memory and reach for your phone because you’re all addicted to it and you know it. Opening your email somewhat uncomfortably as you distract yourself from half embodied memories. Maybe you’ll see this email and scroll to the next because its sexier or promises cash deals. Maybe you’ll open this one intentionally or by chance.
I thought of where you’d be sitting and how you might take in these words. The subtlety of the light in the moment. How the weather affects your mood, wherever you are. Did your aunt say something in a tone? Are there no aunts or mothers or fathers where you are? Musical chairs. Musical friends. Did no one say anything, in any tone? Do you miss people’s tones, no matter the temperament? I wonder where you are.
Another fucking Thanksgiving newsletter. Or, oh, interesting she wrote us today- what will she say? I do write most days, but not always here to you. Perhaps I should, but I do not, think in terms of masses ripe for marketing harvest. You see, I have nothing to offer you. No wares to peddle. Nothing to sell. Fuck black Friday deals. Like, what? I am neither selling my time nor energy right now. I have nothing to gain, but potentially something to share if you’ll allow it.
A voice.
This voice gifted to me in this body and soul is known to speak of Life with a capital L. I speak around it because I have lived. I don’t care if you’re on the left or the right or what color you are or how ugly, smart, fat, young or old, famous or rich you are. I don’t care who you know. I don’t care who you fuck. I especially don’t care who your daddy is or who your mommy is. I don’t care how many followers you have. Most of you know that by now I am not enticed to play into bullshit traps of false power on this plane. I know better. I don’t care how small you think you are, or how arrogant you behave. It’s your rodeo. Do it how you want to.
This voice applies to all.
And there are a million ways to look at this day. Some are fighting, depressed, lonely, grateful, praying for food, hoping to ease stress, or maybe it’s your only day off. Some may be nourished and blessed to share this day with friends and family. In sickness or health. Facing doom or glory. No matter your condition or circumstance, national holidays warrant reflection of some kind and this is one of the big ones in this part of the world.
This voice reflects on Life, as I mentioned. Might I share some reflections? I’ll go ahead about it anyways, as you’ve read or listened thus far.
Love is letting others be themselves, fully. This applies internally. To you. Let yourself, be yourself. This is loving yourself. The second part of this teaching is the key to opening oneself to love.
Being and becoming don’t have to oppose one another. You are you, in the moment as you allow the truth of the moment to propel you forth. Beckoned by a future potential you don’t even need to worry about. Just feel it. If you concern yourself with the hypothetical future potential - the affect, you’ll miss the now moment — the cause, which is the propeller. Do you understand? If you would like your action steps to bear fruit, doing, must be inspired by being. This is a symbiotic relationship, analogous to the relationship between masculine and feminine within you. Balance the dance and you’ll dance through life.
Alignment first, then action. Alignment is the foundation for being. Being summons the silence which births all. Silence and intention magnetize quantum potential which can be transformed into animated, inspired impact on Earth. Alignment first, then action. By committing to this always, one may avoid forcing and beckon more flow and ease. SIDENOTE*** I did not say anything about this being comfortable or easy all the time. I know I’ve made it look easy. This has become unfailingly clear. So I will be even more so now. This work is for the brave and courageous. It is for those who are fearless and unperturbed by momentary discomfort. So buckle up and rise. And if you can’t deal with it, try taking on this attitude: I will become the person who can handle this. If I can’t do it now. I will become it. Acknowledge where you are and intend expansion. Sometimes, acceptance has to come first before the alignment required. Acceptance and surrender take great courage and a dissipation of pride and personal agendas. Whatever is coming to you is calling you to rise and look at the world and your place in it differently. Wildly differently. Get fucking radical and be fun and righteous about it — whatever that means for you.
As you evolve, it is normal, nay-it is law, {yes I say nay and whilst} that all around you evolves on par with the rapidity of your growth. Take it easy. Sprint, betch. Do both or one or the other as you see fit. Bob and weave. Backflip off the fucking charts into the dark ocean. De-robe your waters and light your maps a’flame. It’s all within, anyways. You are the living code.
Nothing outside of you can do it for you. How many times have I said tricks are for kids? Stripped down to your bare nothingness, you have all and you are all. Naked in the void, your magnificence reigns. There is no need to identify with any form or idea or mask or false version of self. Do you see? Do you know? Do you feel? Do not be surprised when everything changes. Worlds are always changing. How beautiful to be animated by life, dancing in the quantum with your spirit, playfully cooing a whisper of your soul’s song until you sound the bell with all your heart. And you are home. The sound of the bell awaits your hand.
You are whole and complete right now just as you are right now. Its all perfect. Learn to accept the great ALL of life which is inclusive of a spectrum of experience we have yet to understand as a species. ALL includes that which you do not know, and that which you do not want to feel. However it is a part of the whole, nonetheless, and warranting your acceptance and integration. You are whole and complete right now, just as you are. You are whole and complete right now, just as you are. It’s all okay. It’s all beautiful. No matter what. Even the great dramas serve their simple purpose of bringing you back to love. Simply love. That’s it.
You may get to a point where the angels, sages, saints and suchness cease their visits. And it is because it is unnecessary. You no longer need to perceive anything outside of you. You no longer need symbols and dreams or visions to understand yourself. You’ll realize it was you the whole time. You are it. It is you, floating through and connected to everything in this universe. It was you the whole time. You’ve become a giant. You can stay here and grow taller and taller with the claircognizance to just fucking know. You know and have no questions. It is. You are. I am. All is whole. There may come a point when there is nothing to say or share or discuss about your personal growth path.
The polarities melt into themselves and become absurdly hilarious. Insanely and entirely ridiculous. The absurdity at perceiving such opposites and all the drama it caused will cancel itself into irrelevance and you’ll be left with the truth. You’ll laugh out of your mind and into your heart in moments of utter decay. People will call you insane, try to tell you what you are doing right or wrong to make themselves feel more comfortable, or that you’re insensitively at peace. Let them say what they will. But you won’t give a fuck. Because you’ll know.
Opportunities to trust deeply may present themselves in terrifying ways. You may have to trust in All for the sake of your very life, and the lives of your children. I do not diminish this. I understand how most of the world has had to swallow the last several years and it ain’t what fancy folks on the nice parts of the coasts experience. However, some of you will have to trust that you’ll be able to eat, stay off the streets, not be physically harmed, that your children will be safe, etc. Trust. Just keep trusting. Trust is Love. There is no difference. Trust and be love. Embody trust and you embody love. When all else fails and you don’t know where to go, where to turn, where you’ll be living, how you’ll eat, how you’re going to make it—- this is my advice: FLIP MASLOW ON HIS FUCKING HEAD AND GO TO SOURCE FIRST. Find Source within and allow this to meld with the human heart, creating a compass comprised of primal and angel, of earthen intelligence and divine wisdom. Let the heart guide you into those places unknown. Do not believe in what you see with your physical eyes for it all changes. All is in mutation. Trust the path of heart and you will find your way through. Let every moment on the path, every second of these twisted turns and frightfully cascading ebbs and flows of life change you. Let it change you for the good. Let it make you wise. Let it gift you love. When you have this, you can loose all and stand tall and in nobility, regality, majesty. This is called mastery. And people see those who can do this as leaders, devoted to truth of being. This is a rare sight. Step into it. Amen.
Health and personal evolution is an act of GREAT REBELLION. I’ve enjoyed every second of figuring out what the system never could, or insisted on not ;) If you’re doing it. Just own it. It is easier that way. And keep going. Don’t give up.
Honor your archetype, your modus operandi, the soul signature, your divine blueprint — whatever the fuck you’d like to call it these days. Honor who the fuck you are. Know thyself. And here we circle back to my first bullet point. Loving others is letting them be who they truly are, and this includes you. Honor yourself and the truth of yourself. Let yourself be. Truly be. And then, you will know exactly what to do and how to move no matter what is happening around you. AND, I mean c’mon, don’t expect everyone else to have your blueprint, man. They’re not like you. They don’t think like you. Don’t be offended by the diversity of personality types, minds, hearts, systems, frequencies, ways of being and sensitivities. This planet is a diversity experiment. You are the sun overlain by a uniquely individual, one of a kind stained glass, shining out to the world in your own pattern. There’s a lot of unique fingerprints.
I have pages of writing around this so I want to keep this short and sweet. This one is for the parents. Here’s my advice and I am screaming it all caps lock: FUCK THE SYSTEM AND DO WHAT IS RIGHT FOR YOUR CHILDREN AND FAMILY. FUCK LACK OF COMMON SENSE, REASON, MORONS, INANE BULLSHIT. INSTEAD HONOR YOUR HEART, KNOWING AND THE LIFE PATH AND DIRECTION OF YOUR CHILDREN’S NEEDS. In order to do this you have to know your children deeply. They chose you, by jove. They chose you in the name of great love. They chose you as representatives of Source. They CHOSE YOU to guide them and their hearts in this realm. They have their own soul knowing and life purposes that have nothing to do with you. But you are not required to cut your sails or that of your children to fit into a bullshit system for the sake of what? Societal norms which are based on corruption and greed? What matters more your soul or fitting into weirdness {tom-fuckery not cool weird}? Gosh, just saying societal norm just made me cackle because there are none anymore. Henceforth go, go and create! And please keep the children in mind. Protect them from the bullshit you have the power to do so through home education. Don’t be a coward. Rise for your child.
Let it go and be free. Go be free. Go be free. Go be free. You are free. You always wanted freedom. So go be free. You belong. You are seen. You are understood. Go live.
You are so deeply loved.
Sincerely,
Kalisa Augustine