Broken Heart’s Club Testimonial:
“I can’t thank you enough, the work today meant a great deal to me. There’s an excavation going on in my emotional body that has been hiding and dusty for far too long. To experience, even the pain, has awakened me so deeply, in so many ways. It is an experience. It is what I deem to be the point of life - love, and the messiness of it, but sometimes we stop ourselves from surrendering to those experiences. I am hurting very deeply, but I know I am walking through it to the other side of a whole new integration. The multitude of tools you have clearly mastered to make sense of each truth I hold, and unlock the path forward for me, is remarkable. I am honored by the way you are able to hold space and support me, it means so much,” she says in tears of gold.
I say gold, because that’s what my client will ultimately be getting out of this experience. GOLD. Is her heart broken, totally? Was the writing on the wall, eh’ some of it…. but not all.
Well, hello… KARMIC LOVER.
Song of the Moment: Price I Pay
I never discuss too much of my personal or love life publicly. I am, actually, quite private. Many of you know I prefer landlines, candelabras and wax seal stamps to letting people geotag my dinner plates and road trips, take an edge on my great loves and relationships, or know too much about my daughter and her world. I know… I know, but once upon a time, privacy was very, chic. For more on what I think is spiritually chic, check this out.
That being said, I do feel it is time to discuss karmic relationships and soul mates, oh -just a tad and with a bit of sass. I mean really, everyone wants love and is just distracting themselves from a lack of it. So, c’mon tough cookie. Stop pretending like you don’t give a fuck because WE ALL KNOW YOU DO. You’re a human. That means you were made from love and for love. That love may take on different forms. But please don’t deny your sweet, little ‘ole heart the truth, my friends. We are all lovers, here. Now, here’s a little random factoid-context about me (without giving too much away):
Before I went public with my healing work, I had a nickname given to me by finance guys on wall street: DR. LOVE. No, not because I am or was an escort! Because of my advice. They annoyed me enough to start a practice, okay? I said y’all need to cough the dough now, this is BS.
During the pandemic and my recent subterranean era when I went offline, closed my wizard curtain and basically moved to Tijuana (LOL- I have my ways… needed it). I was doing/learning some deep, wild, dirty, badass, cosmically gunslinging, metaphysical work with some powerful people looking to get out of hell 😎. Yep, guns blazing brighter than the sun! Oh the glory. It was hard. It was rich. It was fun. Sometimes it took me out. But I got back up. I was studying and making discoveries that shocked me, and I am not easily shocked. I put myself through trainings and trials by fire, or the universe did — whatever, same thing. It was a really powerful time and prepared me for some great karmic work I had to clean up in NYC in the fall. My point here is, my other nickname. Now, certain cosmic players (I use that term to describe folks that have been around the celestial block a few times, big baddies that are really taking this life time to balance error and close karmic unrest) have given me the nickname THE CLOSER. It’s in regard to getting out of hell, off the karmic wheel and closing the BS down. (A baseball term for the one who finishes the game for non-sports fans.)
I have been blessed to experience great loves in this life. I have a lot of soul experience looking at and studying relationships from a metaphysical and spiritual perspective. And I have chosen to treat LOVE AND RELATIONSHIPS AS A SPIRITUAL PRACTICE since I was 22. It was a conscious choice when I started doing soul work in this area. There’s learning in everything, especially matters of the heart. Oh, some of the greatest lessons.
I’m badder than the bad boys. And no, it doesn’t have to do with sex, drugs or rock and roll. If you want more info on this, hmmmmm let’s have cocktails or talk in your next session. Which does indeed bring me to my other little nickname. Judge me not: THE BAD BOY WHISPERER.
Does that mean I’m Ms. Perfect, fuck no! But it does mean I have a little experience. When I get into something, I get into it. I research and read and study. I course correct and try. Hard. Obviously, I am interested in human psychology, relationships, God, creativity and the nature of reality and love. I honor who I am, what I am, what I attract, the tones resonant with my field and everything it comes with it. I’ve gone into deep trainings after relationships and made sure I am up to snuff on what the hell just happened. I’ve spent years of study in this stuff and looking at romantic and karmic and soul mate situations from all sorts of perspectives.
Looking at love as a spiritual practice means I am in it to win it. Winning it to me means learning the spiritual lesson associated with the experience and growing through practical application in my life. Why? Because my field gets stronger, I become more me, and am able to hold light, amp up hard and my cup runneth over with authentic power.
I am not into just settling down with Joe Blow or Jane Doe because it is comfortable, or it works, or I need a partner. Entirely too boring for a wild thang like me. No, no, no, no—there’s much more to the great story of incarnation, love and evolution for me in this life. This is the stuff and substance of all that is! I go back through ages and lifetimes because I want to know the greatest love stories never told! You can’t write this shit, well you can. And I am in my creative work… Anyways, my goodness have I been broken down, and really hurt in both violent and emotionally gut wrenching ways. But, you want to know the truth about it? Honestly, I don’t know if I would be me if I hadn’t gone through it. And I love myself. I can promise you that.
I’d probably be more boring and unable to offer new perspectives, more sheltered and shy, without the lessons ingrained in my field. And that’s what you guys need.
You see, you need the healing written in light codes in my field so that when you sit down, the healing has begun. That’s why you guys trust me and don’t know quite why. It’s very simple, I’ve already been through it an healed from it. Your soul knows that already. Your neocortex does not. Also, this isn’t our first life together. There’s also that karmic note… anyways.
Learning from my love experiences adds amplitude to my art, spiritual understanding, writing, poetry, songs, parenting, how I roll through the world, feel in my body and more. I have learned that that love is letting people be who they are while honoring and loving yourself. I’ve learned that if it is true love, it simply never dies. And I’ve also learned that just because it is a knock your socks off love beyond time, space, and reason, and you see all the multitudinous dimensions of your many incarnated relationships— ‘eh, well, guess what, doesn’t necessarily mean it’s your person IN THIS LIFE.
People get really tripped up on lust, karmic chemistry, feeling a love so old it must be it the big bang and origin of the known universe— and then, stay in the loop of the negative aspects of the relationship sometimes a little too long, and without learning the lessons. You want the love? You gotta become it. I like to look at what I am attracting, assess, and then use my discernment to know exactly what I spiritual lessons I am working on.
For me, it’s not necessarily about what I get on this earth plane, but more so about becoming the most loving being that I can be in any given moment. I have plenty of love in my life in general, and am never without someone or two or three soul loves waiting in the weeds for me to be single and presenting their feelings. I don’t swipe. I magnetize, baby, and it’s just something that I can’t help. Even my therapist says it. If I start to date someone my father, with a wry grin might, say something along the lines of “Poor bastard, you sure he can handle it?”Oh, his girls break hearts all over the country, what can he do? But perhaps, maybe that’s a part of my learning and teaching. Love, even sacred love and sacred bonds, come in many forms. The lessons are myriad. And it takes an artist’s heart, a mystic’s sense, a lover’s truth, and a philosophers mind, to understand ourselves in the context of a mirror (or two or three or four, 😅 hehe). Can you go there? Hell yeah you can! Just like working out or running or meditating; flexing emotional maturity and strength in a romantic context is a muscle. Experience is required.
There are many folks that might look at situation X and say, nah, I’m out. No fucking way. I might say, ahh I have unfinished karmic business here. There is gravity, a force. There’s something for me to learn here. My heart guides me. Even if it looks a little messy sometimes. I always come out with the gold. I really do. And it’s one of the reasons I do believe in God. I didn’t used to. I was a chain smoking, brooding brunette atheist until I had an angelic avatar shakedown. But that’s a story for another time...
Sometimes, these karmic soul love experiences take months, a day, decades, a week—but learning to live with love as it lands in whatever form it takes, in this field of time on Earth, is a part of learning deep acceptance, as well as becoming someone who is open to great love.
And I choose to keep opening my heart and opening to love, no matter what! That is a promise to myself. Embracing love in all forms without having to control or condition it or take it all personally, while loving yourself, having boundaries and high expectations is super fucking sexy. So hot! When you know you’re the prize because you earned the inner treasure, oh the freedom… and it makes their heads spin.
I absolutely believe in great, epic love. Oh, anything less won’t do. I won’t settle. Can’t be bought or tamed. Hehehe. I am blessed to be in this life and have the heart that I do. I love my heart, and know. I just, know…
There is A LOT of karmic balancing happening at this time, right now. My last client working through relationship issues really needed the karmic understanding to help her accept her man, his behavior, the situation, and to be energetically open while going through emotional duress.
Do you all know how much I love you? Well, I do. You can contact me if you need some support in the love department too. I’m here for you. I love it. Go on, give me the play by play. I am all about it.
And on that note, I have to give a shout out to an old soul love from another era of my life, who is one of my favorite, utmost baddest, blues musician both sides of the Mississippi. He’s a part of my southern soul tribe and boy, did he try to pull some fast ones on your girl! Pshhh…
What do you think I did? Well, I won’t tell ya.
I’ll let him. Give Price I Pay a really loud listen on some good speakers and follow him on Spotify. Be proper and respect your artist’s work. Oh, it’s damn good. Ya’ll like the blues, right? If you don’t, I’m not sure if this list is for you 😉. Many moons away from those fateful, painful days; that now looking back, I wouldn’t dare take away—- I know that some loves come into your life for unexpected reasons, guiding you on towards your purpose. And it’s fucking cool. Wouldn’t trade a moment. Not with any of them. Take it away Pope…. Price I Pay. ( Earth Mama is my song too).
Trust. Be smart. And enjoy the ride. This is your life. Live a little, baby. It’s so much better to go through it. At the end of your life, you’re going to consider how deeply you loved, and how much you allowed yourself to receive love in return.
Yours In TOTALLY TRUE EPIC LOVE,
Kalisa